“Uh, hi, this is Scott, I won’t be making it in today. I was up most of the night with a cough and sore throat.”
I actually don’t know why I am protecting you. I couldn’t sleep last night because of work-related anxiety. I am finding it harder and harder to absorb your hot and cold mood swings and the underlying feeling that I could be fired at any moment. I thought that I had come to terms with the knowledge that the only time I was going to get any performance recognition is when I do something wrong, but lately, the negative-only feedback has become harder to process.
I want to work hard and I want to do the best job I can do, no matter what job that may be. I have always been a rather stoic worker that needs little to no managing, but ignoring your constant negativity is exhausting.
So while I surf employment websites and do several hours of cardio at the gym today, I will be getting paid. Hopefully, I will be able to sleep tonight and see you bright and early tomorrow.
*** Any similarity to actual individuals is pure coincidence. This is a writing exercise whose characters are fictitious composites. ***
- Is Anxiety Keeping You Up at Night? (everydayhealth.com)
- Bullying and Anxiety: What’s the Connection? (education.com)
- Anxiety and Bipolar Disorder (everydayhealth.com)
- Do You Have Social Anxiety Disorder? (everydayhealth.com)